Summer? What Summer?

So here it is! The end of Summer. Its always bittersweet. I look forward to new beginnings that Autumn holds. But I will miss the endless possibilities that lie in a summer's night. But this summer, however sucked! There was nothing exciting going on. It felt like the same day over and over. And it was so cold! I had a crush, here and there. But nothing that stuck. I'm more focused on the future. Not being able to remain conscience in the present. Always referring to the past or future. These are signs that I am looking for something new. I am not happy with my current position in life. Everything seems so mundane! Everything. That's why I'm always grateful for Autumn. For me it signifies everything I need right now. Transition, shedding and starting over. I love it. And I'll be working in a park, so this is a good Fall season. Being around nature, people, art and opportunity.

I recently did a Chakra test and found out my most awakened Chakra is the:

Sahasrara/The Crown Chakra: Located at the top of the head. The crown chakra is linked to understanding, cosmic consciousness, and ability to eventually achieve enlightenment.

So it sounds good. At least I know I have the ABILITY to do it. Some people work hard for years and years, and achieve nothing. Because they have no understanding of self, nor their purpose. I know what the bottom line is. So, it SEEMS great. But the bottom line can never be met, without the right steps towards it. I can't expect to wake up and be totally enlightened. But the idea of that, is the exact way you become enlightened. The idea that anything that you manifest is possible. The rest of the Chakras I got mid-level results. Meaning, I am on the right path, but not exactly there. But the Chakra I got the lowest in was:

Anahata/The Heart Chakra: Located at the center of the chest, a person with a healthy heart chakra will have a strong ability to love his or herself as well as others. It is also the center of hope and compassion.

That surprised me at first. But with further investigation, I realized it was my mixed views on reality that caused these results. At the end of the day, I believe that all mankind is capable of finding true happiness within themselves and each other. And I believe and truly wish for a Utopia someday. But Society/Matrix makes all of that look and feel distorted from the outside. I became afraid to love, after being let down so many times. We are not ourselves anymore. We believe that the worse is possible sometimes. Especially without being fully aware. It's so hard to live in this world with ideology like mine. But sometimes it feels like the only way. I know the possibilities that we can achieve are endless. But the minute I get close to the outside world, I feel inadequate. Like I need more. Of what? I don't know. Every minute I'm reminded of how much I don't have. And how much I need to get what I want out of life. It prevents me from doing anything.
With studying Chakras, I also started to dive into Prophecies and things of that nature. It's so crazy how afraid people are of the truth.