Did ya miss me?!

Not that I have actual followers, yet. But...how y'all doin'? Wow, there's been so much going on since I first started this site. I really didn't even get my feet wet, when a whole lot started to change. I had to go through some transitions. Get focused. And now your girl is back. We're taking things in a new direction. So bare with me...

There's been a lot of tragedy in the media lately. Most recently, are the deaths of a swimsuit model and her crazy reality show husband! Ryan Jenkins was first brought to my attention last week. I was afully ill, and was forced to watch Megan Wants to Marry a Millionaire. And in that episode, Jenkins was winning dates and buying her gifts. She mentioned she wasn't feeling him, but would give him a chance because of the gifts. (How shallow). Now, months after the show wraps, he's married to some next chick. Looking just like Megan. He kills her, chops her body up and throws it in the trash! Then he kills himself! WTF? Crazy! It makes Chris Brown look like an angel again. I think is really sad, and ironic. These dating reality shows have just been getting worse. You know its bad when you can say Flavor of Love was a better quality show. However, if Megan picked Jenkins, she could have been the one dead. And sources close to the show say he was very close to winning. He was so charming, VH1 casted him in I Love Money 3! And according to 20/20, he was arrested before the show for assulting his girlfriend! How did he slip through the cracks? Even on other shows, the conteststants notice alarming behavior from other castmates. And sometimes those warnings fall on deaf ears. You're not safe dating ANYWHERE!!! Even in front of millions of viewers, a psycho can be unnoticed. It's frightening. We might just laugh it off as them being "eccentric" or something. But, most times, women have an intuition. We know when something seems too good to be true. It's not the self-deprecating type of "Too-good-to-be-true". Where we feel we don't deserve it. Although we might go through periods where we don't feel our best, we always come around to luxuriate in the love we know we deserve! However, there may also be those times where you feel in your gut somethings wrong. Even if the guy is normal. Or if he acts shy. If you feel it in you're heart, you're right! My mind and my soul have constant battles. but if i dont feel it, I don't do it.

This year, I have taken a break from dating. Just trying to redevelop my type. I've met nerds, rappers, austrialians and models...just to name a few. All of which have nice intentions. But it just isn't right. Like, I'm not looking for anything grand. Just something that fits. Why anyone would want to settle for less is beyond me! This world is too big, with too many people for you to settle for someone you're not that into. And life is too short.

A New Earth

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